A day of sadness....

you on my blog will be the first to know this sadness. It seems that I have lost the baby me and my boyfriend were so excited about. I havent quite told him yet...Im not entirely sure if I can. For the first time in my she wolf life im scared to death. My man is a good guy, very handsome, strong and loving but im not sure how he'll react to this. I mean god he was so excited.... Im not in town right now im up in pickerington i go home tomorrow and im scared of whats to happen. I love him very much, and we have been talking marrige and another kid soon to follow this one but now.... im not sure whats to happen. I shall try to keep you posted..... :( wish me luck my loves?
forever,
shadowless

"tIME TO SAY GOODBYE"
Sometimes I let it bother me too much.
Sometimes I try too hard to hide every scar and any bruise that may be visible.
A hug can only go so far.
A kiss can always cross the line.
When I close my eyes tell me why I dream of you.
Why does your voice haunt my nightmares.
I do not want to love you and i would rather forget you than to keep living like this.
get out of my head if you have any compassion.
Stay out of my heart if you have any sympathy. My composure is breking this mask I wear is slipping.
I don not want to love you, I do not want you to see this broken down girl
I still have my spirit and you can not take my pride. So i'll face today and tommorrow I will try and forget you. I dont want you here.
not anymore.
it is just what I feel.
for i can not die with you in my heart.
let us end our torture.
goodbye anthony....

" My hell "
When I die, I'll escape the fate.
I want to run from empty promieses.
why do you look at me like that when you belong to the one who binds me by chains, satan in a angels body you can love...but angel bound by lies you can love only at a distnce.
I havent told anyone that i love you, for this torture is too much to bare.
If i say i love you, everything will fade away.
I keep you locked in my heart, my eyes, my smile- for your smile still haunts my every thought.
I hide behind a mask so you dont have to see my pain.
OUr eyes lock in the hallway and i look away,
I feel your eyes on me.
You a vampire- i your prey.
Whast will it take for us to be together?
I look into your eyes and send myself to hell.