"tIME TO SAY GOODBYE"
Sometimes I let it bother me too much.
Sometimes I try too hard to hide every scar and any bruise that may be visible.
A hug can only go so far.
A kiss can always cross the line.
When I close my eyes tell me why I dream of you.
Why does your voice haunt my nightmares.
I do not want to love you and i would rather forget you than to keep living like this.
get out of my head if you have any compassion.
Stay out of my heart if you have any sympathy. My composure is breking this mask I wear is slipping.
I don not want to love you, I do not want you to see this broken down girl
I still have my spirit and you can not take my pride. So i'll face today and tommorrow I will try and forget you. I dont want you here.
not anymore.
it is just what I feel.
for i can not die with you in my heart.
let us end our torture.
goodbye anthony....

The Freedom of not knowing,

There is ultimate freedom in not knowing ones end. I know it seems a scary thought when you ponder about death. But for every end there is a new beginging. People who know me know that I believe in Reincarnation. Ibelieve that in one point in time we were all nothing more then stars...but as we died we became somthing new. Creatures of all sorts. Gods, fish, horses, wolves, dragons, shadows, human beings. People often ask me, "Shadowless, if you could try and guess what animal you were in a past life waht would you say you were?" And I reply in all honesty. "A wolf."
For those of you who have no clue what I am talking about let me brief you on the subject of "reincarnation":::
Reincarnation is the belief that when our bodies parish our souls move on and take the form of another may it be creature or human or plant and space. We have no memory of the past, no memory of love of hate of anything but the present and then slowly we begin to learn all over again. But some people have managed to unlock thier minds and discover thier once abandoned thoughts.
Reincarnation is an amazing thing to behold and I have encountered many people in my life who have memories or reincarnation. Thus furthing my spiral belief of this nature.


any questions?


xoxoxo,
shadowless