Thursday, June 17, 2010

shes the blade by sugarcult (one of my fav songs)

dont you make a move tonight,
you can only stagger
once shes got you in her sight
your the one shes after

shes the blade and youre just paper
your afraid cause shes got closer
youre back-steppinand shes back-stabbing everything in your life

she shtole everything your heart deisred
now you want it back
she stole everything your heart disired
now you want it back

one by one you count the fights
doesnt even matter
that shes got you by surprise
misery's your master

shes the blade and your just paper
youre afriad cause shes got closer
your back-steppin and shes out wrecking everything in your life

she stole everything youre heart disired
now you want it back
she stole everything your heart disired
now you want it back

she stole everything
she controlled everything
she stole everythin
she controlled everything

shes the blade
shes the blade
shes the blade and your just paper
shes the blade and your just...

shes the blade and your just paper
your afraid cause shes got you closer

she stole everything your heart disired
now you want it back
she stole everything your heart desired
now you want it back

she stole everything
she controlled everything
she stole everythings
she controlled everything

A day of sadness....

you on my blog will be the first to know this sadness. It seems that I have lost the baby me and my boyfriend were so excited about. I havent quite told him yet...Im not entirely sure if I can. For the first time in my she wolf life im scared to death. My man is a good guy, very handsome, strong and loving but im not sure how he'll react to this. I mean god he was so excited.... Im not in town right now im up in pickerington i go home tomorrow and im scared of whats to happen. I love him very much, and we have been talking marrige and another kid soon to follow this one but now.... im not sure whats to happen. I shall try to keep you posted..... :( wish me luck my loves?

Monday, May 17, 2010

My name is shadowless,
keeping to the shadows is what i do best.

things to complain about on a rainy day part two....

  1. The fact that you didnt get laid last night (the one day of the week!!)
  2. The fact that the whore of the halls -Lacie Lean Stafford- Called you childish.
  3. The fact that the one blonde bitch who hangs out with Waller looked at you and said "here we go" under her breath thinking you couldnt hear.
  4. The fact that you cant fight because youre pregnant.
  5. The gym class jocks.
  6. the blood stains on your shirt from your last fight with a 6'5'' giant football jock.

Some things to bitch about on a rainy day.

  1. The rain itself
  2. bitches who think they know it all and they own it all
  3. your hair.
  4. your jeans
  5. the boy who sits behind you in french
  6. the fact that you had the perfect skinny jeans and tank to wear today, but you fell in the mud crushing that dream fast!
  7. That extra tall bitch they call alex waller, the ones whos bush looks like a rain forest.
  8. the fact that youre hair cant do that "poof" thing
  9. All of the above.
  10. that you had to read this far.
  11. that im now telling you to have a nice day.


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

So mad....(wrong use of word)

Im fend up and tired of the wannbe emos at my school! Casey Dunigan and his little crew think that they are some hot shit. They are WANNABE EMO THE SAME AS THAT WANNABE WHORE CHRISTINE WISE. Most people I know think that I cant handle myself in a fight or that I dont have the fucking guts to dish it out. They think I talk hot shit and walk away. WRONG. I would beat every fucking person in this school to the ground and back if I could. I have only a select few that have never pissed me off.
If I decided today to show everyone the true meaning of the word emo- they would shit themselves. My bestie and I are true deff and I know for a fact that I am emo. I try to hide it because ppl think that its posing but in all honsesty I have never given a fuck about what others say.
It gets really tiring dealing with dumb shits like these. Today I was called a poser. Hell. No. I am not a poseur if I was I would look like Christine Wise, Casey Dunigan, Luke Dunigan, Ryan Azardi and those others. I am myself I am emo. I am me. Fucking deal with it.
On another note NEVER tell me to CHILL.I am not your goody goody girl. I will not hesitate to knock your fucking head in. People who tell me to chill end up with a smashed face.
I am royally fucking pissed and I feel real sorry for the next person to push me over the edge! Even though Im preg I will not hesitate to fuck someone the fuck up!!!

whore of the halls part two (the stench is worse)

Alright well school will be out in a few weeks. These hall ways smell so bad. Everytime the whore walks by I tell her to close her legs...Sadly our school is getting a bad name. Ashley Stalker...sory correction Stocker. Ha not much of a difference though. Hmmm. what was I giong to say....oh yeah. The bitch is saying that she is prego....oh wow. Sixth preg in a month and soon to be about the eigthteen abortion in the last six months. Everyone knows that the whore is messed up.
Well, hmmmm. Anyway if you ever come across the name stocker turn tail and run otherwsie you are in for a load of drama and your life would be hell. Personally i am a bitch and i know it i love ruining her life. So much fun. If you mess with my friends I will destroy you.....and another bitch has joined the circle i will destroy. Her name is Kira Oliver. ...Dont let her sit on santas lap. O.o She might rape him because her fat ass isnt gettting any, Hhaha. Yes yes im mean deal with it. But the truth is one major bitch herself. Ill have pics of the whores up soon. Love you! later

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Sometimes I let it bother me too much.
Sometimes I try too hard to hide every scar and any bruise that may be visible.
A hug can only go so far.
A kiss can always cross the line.
When I close my eyes tell me why I dream of you.
Why does your voice haunt my nightmares.
I do not want to love you and i would rather forget you than to keep living like this.
get out of my head if you have any compassion.
Stay out of my heart if you have any sympathy. My composure is breking this mask I wear is slipping.
I don not want to love you, I do not want you to see this broken down girl
I still have my spirit and you can not take my pride. So i'll face today and tommorrow I will try and forget you. I dont want you here.
not anymore.
it is just what I feel.
for i can not die with you in my heart.
let us end our torture.
goodbye anthony....
" My hell "
When I die, I'll escape the fate.
I want to run from empty promieses.
why do you look at me like that when you belong to the one who binds me by chains, satan in a angels body you can love...but angel bound by lies you can love only at a distnce.
I havent told anyone that i love you, for this torture is too much to bare.
If i say i love you, everything will fade away.
I keep you locked in my heart, my eyes, my smile- for your smile still haunts my every thought.
I hide behind a mask so you dont have to see my pain.
OUr eyes lock in the hallway and i look away,
I feel your eyes on me.
You a vampire- i your prey.
Whast will it take for us to be together?
I look into your eyes and send myself to hell.

The whore of the halls.....(plug your nose)

Well as you read in my last post there is a girl in this school that i cannot and absolutely will not tolerate. She is one of the lowest and most foul people i know! She told me - shadowless - to grow up. Im sorry but telling me to grow up is like telling a tax rep to stop being fish. I am more fucking mature then that girl willl ever be. Ture I am only sixteen but i had to raise 5 little kids with a drunk mom and abusive dad. My own uncle molested me when I was three... I have never had a true childhood and true sometimes in school I can act so very imature and childish but that is how i wear my mask. No one knows how Shadowless lives or has to go through so much pain anyway. Stocker is a bitch and i know i can be one too but she is like PMS bitch everyday!! And she is FUGLY!! She claims to have had a abortion three times within a month and claims to be still preg. sound stupid?

A new man for shadowless.

To all of my friends who roam the halls of indian valley high school. There is the queen of skanks among us. Her name is Ashley Stocker. Yes she is rich...and one major royal bitch. She tries to buy off her friends and stel thier guys. Trust me I have known her for a month and it has been nothing but drama. The only thing i wish for this hoe is that she grow up and pereferbly die in a hole. Yes this may be mean of me but you have no idea of the hell she has caused...I lost one man that i thought i loved, and then i swooped her man out from under her- though i didnt even know i was doing it. Ryan Adam winegar will move on for the bitch called stoker has done him wrong too.
No worries though mates I got me a guy and he treats me right. His name is robert Prysi and stocker lied to him all along. He loves me for me and knows what goes on behind the closed doors of my home.... Let me tell you that my home is nothing shy of hell. A crazy father and a drunk mother...brothers who harass me and a whole home who wants me gone...and thats only the brief of it. But this knight in shinning armor came into my life and has begun to save me. Shadowless has finally glimsped what happiness is and what true love can be called. It can be called shadowless, painless, lustless love. Something true and strong and something i will never forget. I fell for him this time guys! oh well, falling is fun

Monday, February 22, 2010

The Freedom of not knowing,

There is ultimate freedom in not knowing ones end. I know it seems a scary thought when you ponder about death. But for every end there is a new beginging. People who know me know that I believe in Reincarnation. Ibelieve that in one point in time we were all nothing more then stars...but as we died we became somthing new. Creatures of all sorts. Gods, fish, horses, wolves, dragons, shadows, human beings. People often ask me, "Shadowless, if you could try and guess what animal you were in a past life waht would you say you were?" And I reply in all honesty. "A wolf."
For those of you who have no clue what I am talking about let me brief you on the subject of "reincarnation":::
Reincarnation is the belief that when our bodies parish our souls move on and take the form of another may it be creature or human or plant and space. We have no memory of the past, no memory of love of hate of anything but the present and then slowly we begin to learn all over again. But some people have managed to unlock thier minds and discover thier once abandoned thoughts.
Reincarnation is an amazing thing to behold and I have encountered many people in my life who have memories or reincarnation. Thus furthing my spiral belief of this nature.

any questions?


My best friend

My friend and I are pretty close. Which is good. We turn to eachother when something goes wrong and we'll be there for eachother when things go all bad and we feel unwanted. Is there anything in life grander than a friend? I think not. Sorry I know this is my 3-4th blog today. I just cant help myself. Its too fun ^ ^ Hope you guys dont min reading! Im far from done! haha

Web Design

Web Design. Web design. Oh what fun? Hhaha. Wekk this class is basically easy for me. I am passing with a a+ isn't that great.?! Oh the terribly handsome romeo that I have been messins around with is being to chase after me. Wont he be sad when he finds that I am off the market for awhile.....But i do like my toys. heheeh. Just kidding my friends.


Friday, February 12, 2010

Its what I do best.

People are often asking me what I am best at. My anwser is always the same: Sexual intimidation. I can always beat another girl out in seducing any skills are original and yet they are completely my own. I try new things that othyer girls wouldn't find fun. I'm into almost anything and I enjoy being someones toy

Secondary Defenses

People are stupid. No dont get angry we are. We live our lives while we dont look at what harm we are doing. That is very stupid, of course and you should pay more attention.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Day One: back to the theiving halls of high school.

My first day back at my favorite high school, Indian Valley High school. The people have all changed drastically! Everything and everyone is differant than it was last year. My clique has fallen apart and they have been swarmed into other bee hives while I remain the lone wolf. Yet don't get me wrong, I have friends...sadly though, my pack mates have all become a higher rank. Preps and cheerleaders. Ugh. Only I remain the rebel black wolf, the only wolf out causing trouble and staying on the prowl for new pack mates, while the others all lounge around inside like some frilly lap dogs. *Sigh* What is the world coming to? Well, theres the bell, Web Design is over my pets. Time for me to scatter!